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The Big Book tells us that without a spiritual experience (sometimes quickly , sometimes slowly), we are powerless over the first bite (okay...it says drink, but you know what I mean). This is why I work the 12 Steps. It's my path to that spiritual experience, no easy or obvious thing for an atheist.

FWIW, most people aren't stuck abstinent. I wasn't. Keep coming back. It works if you work it!

Julie Yeshnowski

It's not keep coming back, it's stick and stay.

Relapse sucks but if you hang in there it gets better. I have been in program for 23 years, since Easter 1987.

It seems like I have been in relapse longer than recovery but the bottom line is I am getting better.

I think of you often and hope that you are attending meetings and working the steps to the best of your ability.


Julie Yeshnowski

Haven't seen an update in a while. Hope all is well with you.

Please keep coming back, it works.


Steve and Julie, Thanks for your encouragement!

I'm doing pretty well. Food isn't great, but I'm getting to work on time and putting in an honest day's work. Which is something I have eaten over for years. Also, unemployment would be really bad for my abstinence.

I'm working on being god-conscience throughout my days and just doing the next right thing. I'm back to two meetings a week, one of which has some strong recovery. Also I have made progress calling my sponsor daily. Not consistent yet, but best I've ever been.


I was looking for writings about being agnostic and doing OA and your ChickenButt blog popped up which eventually led me here. It sounds like you're more comfortable with the Higher Power/God idea now than you were when you first started out and I was wondering if you could point me to some of your posts that talk about that.

I read the posts in your Spirit category and really like the one where you talked about how prayer works even though you don't know why. I'd like to achieve that level of faith.

Julie Yeshnowski

Hope you are making it as you're worth it!

Hope you are abstinent!

Hope you're making meetings as meeting makers make it.

Drop me an email if you need some support!

You're worth it!

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