My name is Dodi and I'm a compulsive overeater.
Oh yes indeed I am. Before I promised not to research thyroid issues anymore I read that there are four types of thyroid cancer and the one of them is really bad with no treatment. My first thought after, "I'm dying" was "If I'm dying can I eat sugar again?" Seriously.
I started trying to figure out if I would need to stay abstinent if there was no hope. I can see that if I have something that must be fought I absolutely have to maintain abstinence. I'm helpless in the food and could never do whatever needed doing. But if there was nothing I could do, could I indulge? I could just give up and slip back into a candy-coated oblivion.
My sponsor pointed out that OA has ruined bingeing for me. She said that I would never get that same relief from food again. I believe her. It had lost much of it's power in the months before I finally got abstinent. So that kind of sucks. I'm in the game now like it or not.
The ultrasound was quick. I almost started crying during the procedure. I'm frightened of the results and desperately wanted the technician to say that everything was fine. Of course she couldn't say a thing, but I tried anyway. I should hear the results sometime this week.
I've tried not to talk about it much. After my first panic and desire to scream it from the rooftops I settled down and have worked to not be a drama queen. Which, if you knew me from before program very different behavior for me. Sure I blogged it, but I'm not calling you to talk endlessly about how sick I could be and how awful it is...blah, blah blah.
Thank you everyone for your support. It means a lot to me.
Sorry to hear about your troubles. Will keep watching for updates. Remember Hp is in charge. How do we know what God's will is? We watch and see what happens.
Posted by: Foodfairy | March 28, 2008 at 07:05 AM
Sorry to hear about your troubles. Will keep watching for updates. Remember Hp is in charge. How do we know what God's will is? We watch and see what happens.
Posted by: Foodfairy | March 28, 2008 at 07:06 AM