"Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself."
― C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity
Surrending to HP means accepting remodeling I don't think is affordable or sensible sometimes. I'd like to issue building permits to HP for each little change. So not really surrender at all. I may never get the hang of surrendering.
I like C.S. Lewis's writings about Christianity and God. So much I can learn about spirituality, even if intent is religion. I also like Madeline L'Engle's Christian writings. Both these authors makes me wish I could still believe the teachings of my youth.