Still here

I'm okay. Going to meetings and practicing abstinence, but it is not an automatic thing right now. No pink clouds for this girl right now. I'm spending too much time in my own head. I'm struggling with getting to work on time. Still trying to have my cake and eat it too. Frustrating.

I've got friends in program and out with serious drama in their lives. I'm dealing much better than I did pre-program. I know I cannot fix anything and that it isn't my job, but it has got me a bit down. I was sort of beating myself up for letting it get to me. I feel sad for my friends who are going through crap in their lives. I think that is okay. I'm not obsessed and I don't think I'm using it to avoid my own issues. I guess I'm learning what normal looks like in this area too. What do sympathy and empathy feel like for normal people? Don't know, probably never will. What do they feel like for me when I'm in recovery? Maybe it feels like this.

Comments

[Foodfairy]

I always enjoy reading your posts. They are full of insight into the mind of compulsive eaters. I too love to fix things, and feel overwhelmed with emotion about other people's lives. I'm not up to steps 6 and 7, but i'm thinking that theere might be some "misapplied character traits" there. Keep up the good work. Trouble with abstinence will pass

[Dodi]

Thanks FF. The food is getting easier already. Once I cleaned up my portions and made some healthy choices it got easier to keep it up.