Whatever it takes

Happy New Year!

Technically 2008 doesn't start for 8.5 hours, but happy new year anyway! This was the best Christmas I've had in years. No drama, good gifts, people I enjoy, and Rock Band. OMG! So much fun. I got a 99 on the vocal track once. Seriously fun game. Drumming is a blast, guitar part is just as fun as Guitar Hero and singing is fun if I'm not worried about sounding like an ass. (Besides, no one there can do it better. My oldest nephew sounds like a cat with his tail nailed to the floor.)

Did I mention no drama? Recovery rocks. So nice to surrender all the crap I carry in my head and just take life as it comes. I've felt much more serenity lately. I'm sure not working for 14 days has a lot to do with it, but truly, even hanging out with my dad has been okay. All the drama in my life is self-generated. How I choose to react makes all the difference.

My hope is that 2008 is a year of little drama for all of us.

101

I weighed myself this morning. I lost 2 more pounds. I'm now at 101. I don't know how I feel. I kind of feel like a got away with something. Like I cheated somehow.

Anyway, trying not to should myself about my feelings. Can't help thinking I should be feeling more happy. Maybe I did my happy dance at 99 pounds. Maybe I still feel crappier physically than I know.

Anyway, the scale appears to still be going in the right direction. I need to focus on this 24 hours.

Under the weather

I've been sick. Came down with a cold before Thanksgiving and am just getting over it now. Yuck. Being sick feels like relapse. I isolate and sleep and watch TV. I missed a couple meetings. It is so easy to get out of good habits. Miss one meeting and suddenly I don't feel like going to the next. But I go anyway because meetings and no sugar are my baseline.

I don't really have much tonight. Just trying to get back into the habit of writing.