I'm doing better. I've gotten to work on time yesterday and today (well, within 15 minutes after 9am, which is on time here). I read Freedom from Bondage in the Big Book this morning. I've read and heard parts of this story before (especially page 551-2), but I cannot remember reading it all before.
So many things struck me in this densely packed story. Here is one:
"...I am the result of the way I reacted to what happened to me as a child. What is much more important to me, A.A. has taught me that through this simple program I may experience a change in this reaction pattern that will indeed allow me to 'match calamity with serenity.'"
BB Pg 544
If I can keep the principles (steps) in mind throughout my day it would certainly change the way I act. I think the trick is to actively practice acting with HP in mind on the little things, so that when the calamitous events unfold my reactions will tend toward HP too. Reacting can be an instinct level impulse, to change it I must be willing to surrender the things that get between me and HP.