What a beautiful day! It's eighty degrees on March 26. I think that's a record high in Illinois, but I'm too lazy to check for sure.
On the way to my meeting last night I realized that this is the first time in my life that for two springs in a row my summer clothes are too big. As a skinny kid I just outgrew clothes every year. Since puberty I've gotten fatter each year. There have been a couple times that I've dieted and my clothes were too big in the spring, but by the next year I always had to buy a bigger size (or two) again.
I'm amazed by the consistency I've found in OA. I've been abstinent for 18 months now. I've only had one gain and a couple months were I stayed the same. Otherwise I've lost between one and five pounds a month. Sometimes that feels too slow. When I start doing diet math and projecting how much I should lose in the next six, twelve, twenty-four months it feels like a never ending struggle. But looking back, it's just a string of twenty-four hours.
When I relax and take each day as it comes I'm content. I need to remember how I feel today the next time I get anxious and impatient with myself.
My favorite capri pants are too big on me now. They are sage green, cotton cargo capris and they make me feel authentically me. When I started OA I was sad because they were too small. Last summer they were perfect and I lived in them when not at work. I wore them yesterday and even with the side straps pulled as tight as they go they were hanging on me. This makes me happy, but also sad. I'll be searching for a replacement pair.